I've struggled with my weight for most parts of my life. From the moment I was called "fat" by my relatives at age 11, food has become my enemy and weight my obsession. Last Summer, I went back to Hong Kong to visit and being a relatively small girl of 5ft and 105 lbs, I didn't consider myself chubby... That is, until some of my relatives pointed out that I was "gaining too much weight". I have this aunt who I dread seeing because everytime she sees me, she would point out that I was getting chubby and that I should stop eating. I also noticed that the sizes in Hong Kong were relatively smaller than the sizes here in America. For the rest of my trip I felt self conscious and a little ashamed to buy clothes, starting to believe that I really am fat. By American standards, I think I'm considered pretty decent and healthy. Not skinny, but healthy. By Hon Kong standards, apparently I'm chubby. pictures of me modelling (non-photoshopped)
VS. Asian Standards
I would never look like that, no matter how much I diet or stop eating. My natural body has curves that I've been trying to get rid of since puberty hit. I'm pretty sure it's genetics since my mother has wide hips too. I have accepted it by now, but still struggling to embrace my curves. Do you think there are different cultural standards in regards to bodyweight? |